NOT THIS

suspended
life beside itself
says not it
this
but what is this
can't be named
a feeling that this
is not it

come stand with me then
and show me
what it is
where it is
if it's not this

draw its shape on the air
put a dress on it
what's on me
is not it
there is something else

this is not it
it is something big
and what matters
I wish to occupy it
if I can catch
sight of it

does this
that I always thought was it
have to be destroyed
before the shape
that's really it
can be defined

taking the leap
saying goodbye
to the confines of this
because this
is not it
.......................